At this stage of my life and as I'm slowly creeping up to my 35th birthday, life seems to be throwing a lot of things at me and I seem to be dodging more than embracing.
This past year the person I seemed to be for years before has started to fade away. I was always content to sit on the side-lines and watch, hardly joined in things and didn't mind one bit. This year has found me reaching out to others, putting my hand up for this and that, talking more and wrestling with my God more but at the same time thanking Him for the amazing things I see He has planned for me.
I have generally been content with who I have been and never worried myself with the way I look or how people perceived me. I knew who I was and who loved me, thats all I needed.
Not so much these days......
I still don't care what others think of me, I instead have become my own critic. I don't like to shop because I can never find things to wear that I like. I have also put on a few extra kilos I never thought I would and that makes a difference how clothes fit anyway. I found out I am lacking iron and that is what has made me tired all the time. As we age our bodies have funny ways of doing things thats for sure. Sometimes accepting things for what they are is hard especially for us women.
It seems each new week I am drawn into something that is challenging me to think out-side the box. Out-side my own thinking and the perception I have of myself. I am greatly encouraged by the people in my life who see so much more in me than I do. God has been showing me snippets of the call on my life and at times it's beyond my own expectations, beyond my wildest dreams. I guess thats why he's God and I am not. God knows what He has called me to be, if I knew already or had it all given to me now I would surely crumble with the lot in one go. I feel strongly that I am being groomed into the position. One step and one day at a time.
Does it all line up with who I see in my mirror? Who I perceive myself to be? No Way!
All I know is I just have to trust that God has a plan. He sees all things and knows how it turns out. My part is not to figure it out but just listen and obey. Thats a hard thing for a control freak like me to do but it's all part of the grooming process. unfortunately the stretching and growing pains come with it.
God knows what we are truly capable of. He want's to use our strengths and weaknesses and we should never think we are not worth the effort, not worth being used by Him.
The person in your mirror whether you know it or not is amazing, special and created to be more than you could ever dream. Believe those good things said about you. Believe those things God has said about you and know the amazing things God has shown you for your future are possible. Simply because you were created specifically for that and once you are there you will wonder why you ever doubted you could be capable or worthy of being there or doing that.
Through my divine power,
I have given you everything you need
for life and godliness.
Don't limit me to your previous experiences;
I want to do new things in your life.
My plans are far beyond your wildest dreams!
Love, Your Faithful God
James 1:17; Eph. 3:20, 2 Peter 1:3
From: Hugs for Women
Personalized Scripture
by LeAnn Weiss
From: Hugs for Women
Personalized Scripture
by LeAnn Weiss
Di,
ReplyDeleteI love you. Thank you for always being so very honest. There are days I wish you could see yourself the way I have always seen you. You have no limits, my darling sister.
Hugs.
Alinta.